I've always felt like I'm extremely self aware. Decisions, actions, reactions; all of these things were thought through and I was aware of the thought processes behind them in my life. With art, however, I never understood how my approach was so different. I can understand letting loose and just going with the flow but to allow myself to lose complete control is something I didn't even know I was doing. Until recently.
My past few paintings have been very special to me. Its been a phase where I was subconsciously working on moodier pieces without even realizing that I was. It was after the diptych I just created that I realized how my palette has shifted so drastically in such a short span of time. I can't explain why this happened and I'd be lying if I talked about experimentation and trying different things because I wasn't consciously doing so. It literally just happened. Take a look at this shift through the pictures below. I can't believe this happened in just 4 months.